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Almost there…

  This is a little behind as I’m now 37 1/2 weeks…
And almost there…? I’ve hit the I can’t wait to meet this baby/ holy crap what if I have no idea what I’m doing. Sometimes I switch inbetween- being a mama is all I’ve ever wanted but at the end of the day we all have that question… What if I’m no good at it? We spent two years trying for our miracle baby, this sweet little boy still seems something of a dream. But he is coming whether or not we are ready for him. Praying for continued health as baby and I are still completely healthy. Hopefully this is the last pregnancy update and the next one he will be in our arms!

-Baby is measuring about 8 pounds (big healthy boy)
-Mama is craving chocolate covered pretzels

-Rings are on and off… Swelling comes and goes

-Daddy is impatient

-Mommy feels very, very large

Sending baby dust and love. ❤️
Xoxo,

Becoming Mom

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Holidays and Pregnancy 

Exhausted. Completely and utterly exhausted. This sweet little boy is wearing me out. I am so blessed and excited to be able to celebrate is upcoming arrival and I hate complaining after everything we have done to finally have a baby. But….I am utterly and completely exhausted. Whew, that felt amazing to say. Most days I feel this sense of immense guilt for even whimpering an ounce of discomfort. But my husband made a wonderful point pregnancy isn’t easy just like getting pregnant wasn’t easy for us. The same way I could talk to him when I felt utterly and completely exhausted with trying to get pregnant for the billionth time I can tell him when I’m simply exhausted during pregnancy. Which makes me think how on earth did I get so lucky with my husband. He has been completely patient this entire pregnancy, he was there for me everytime my heart broke when we found out we weren’t pregnant, and he will continue to be there for me as we become parents. So although I am exhausted at nearly 35 weeks pregnant  I feel so blessed this year to be celebrating the holidays with my husband. 
Below you can see some photos from the holidays so far. ❤️

   
  
  

Love and baby dust!

Xoxoxo,

Becoming Mom

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Time

It feels like yesterday I was blogging and I realized today it’s been months. I think I’m stuck in the quietness of these 8 weeks before our family of 2 is forever changed. Most days I still can’t believe we are finally pregnant and just 8 weeks away of meeting this sweet little BOY. That’s right, did I mention we are having a boy!? I find myself torn between being overwhelmed with emotion and scared sh*%less. I have wanted to be a mom my entire life and after two years of trying my dream is finally coming true. 

Exhaustion is normal at this point, I took a promotion in July which was an amazing career move but being a working mother is not going to be easy. I’ve planned 8 weeks off with this sweet boy before I’ll return to work. 

Names… His name came so easily we went through baby books and there it was staring back at me- Carson. Calling this little boy by name makes everything surreal, feeling his kicks, hearing his heartbeat, all of it brings me to tears. After all of this time, pain, tears, and heartache it’s finally our turn. Sending you all baby dust and prayers on this journey- although such a cliche with time everything does get easier one way or another. 

Love,

Becoming Mom 

Xoxoxo

P.S. Here’s a bumpie from Thanksgiving ❤️

   

   

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And then the whole world knew…

Finally set my fears aside and took the leap to announcing Baby Wren would make their debut February 4th! Can’t believe our little precious secret is now being celebrated with friends and family. We feel so loved knowing we have their support! Just a week more and we are out of the first trimester. And oh my gosh I’m estatic!!    

  

It simply seems like a blur to this point but finally came to the acceptance this is really happening! It’s finally my turn… Love and baby dust to those trying. I know how hard the journey is!

Love,

Becoming mom 
 

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That one little heart beat 

A letter to our sweet baby…

Oh Baby Wren, mom and dad love you so much already! Seeing your heart beat today fast and strong was the best part of these past 8 1/2 weeks. In just two days we will be 9 weeks and just 3 weeks any of being out of our first trimester. Oh what a journey this has been to get to you. Keep on cooking sweet baby. 

Love, 

Your mom 

Baby Wren 

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7 weeks 2 days!?

Still can’t believe we are Pregnant!! Seems like a long awaited dream come true. We’ve been together for 4 years and trying for almost 2 years. And it’s finally our time. First appointment is today and I’ve finally passed he scared sh$tless stage and moved on to the holy crap we are having a baby stage. And all of the pain was worth. Every single dissappoinment, negative pregnancy test, brought me to this moment. And ladies I know I was about on the edge of giving up. it is the hardest journey and not one I thought I would ever be on. But we were and we got theough it. 
It’s crazy to think I love someone so much already. Praying daily for protection for us both. Love and prayers I know what you’re going through and boy do I know how very hard it is. It’s an unfair battle but somehow, someday you’ll win and that’s all you can focus on or it will tear you apart. 
Love lots of love,

Becoming Mom

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Exhausted.

I can finally say we are all moved in! Such a wonderful feeling and thankful for the help that allowed for us to be moved in so quickly! 
Today was full of emotions. Experienced spotting for the first time today and it scared the living day lights out of me. Called my doctor who reassured me there was no reason to be alarmed. Light spotting is common in the first trimester. I’m just 6 weeks and this baby is so loved already. We decided to leave their room empty and have colors picked out. So saying this morning scared me is an understatement. But feeling better and by sweet husband let me relax today and take it easy. Exhausted both physically and emotionally but seeing my beautiful new home has been such a blessing.
Love and baby dust,

Becoming Mom

Xoxo  

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